Wednesday Night Into Thursday

I had trouble sleeping and sometime that night between the tossing and turning I had a dream. I dreamt of that same night in that same bed and I was tossing and turning; a dream within a dream. I was laying on my left side facing the wall hugging my little pillow I've held for years when I sleep. I suddenly have a feeling come over me, a feeling I felt in my chest and the pit of my stomach, I familiar feeling I hadn't felt in far too long. My body began to shift and I felt someone lay close to me. My arm was elevated like I was hugging a much larger pillow. I began to hear a voice and the familiar feeling became stronger. He spoke for a while, but I was not paying attention to the information and just focused on the tone of his voice. The voice I had not heard in years. Not too soon after I knew he was done speaking and as I felt that feeling in my chest become weaker and as I felt my arm drop down slowly, I knew he was leaving and I held on as long as could and yelled out, "I miss you and love you and miss you"!
When that feeling completely disappeared and I felt the knot in my throat become unbearable, that feeling started to reappear. My body shifted to the same position as if I was hugging him and this time I listened. "I'm happy I can come and be with you. I love my daughter". I held him as tight as I could and once again I said, " I love you and miss you and even though I'm crying, don't let that stop you from coming to see me. I love you and miss you so much".
With that, the feeling slowly disappeared, my arm once again hugging my small pillow I woke from the dream and I remember that in my dream I explained to husband what happened, showed him the sweat and tears on my pillow case and then I woke up to reality with the remaining knot in my throat and I let it all out Thursday morning.

Even as I type this out, I can't help the knot in my throat from forming. I miss you dad...